I had a quick hour catch up with Marc yesterday, and he told me about the Google Phone, which according to this article is coming out early 2010. However, if it is going to be made by LG (as the article says) I'm going to be quite hesitant in purchasing it... LG phones haven't lasted long with those in my social circle. See here for photos.


Found via Audrey's blog, from here.

Nicole

You can be one of those happy people
You ARE one of those happy people.

To those people who saw the Avatar movie and didn't like. I don't know why you didn't. It was an epic movie and the 2 and a half hours of amazing storyline and visual was completely worth paying extra to watch it in 3D.

x2 to the people who also didn't enjoy Watchmen. Similar in visual style, a more mature rating than Avatar, that was a great movie too.

Nicole

I hate going to bed drunk; I always wake up ~2 hours later and can not go back to sleep! So uh I spent seven hours dozing miserably on the balcony and coming up things I would like to write! I think everyone writes New York Stories but nobody writes Los Angeles Stories -- not unless they are detective noir anyway. (LA Confidential is so good of course as,djksa sogood)

But like. Can anyone think of a really defining LA Book or Movie.

If you say Crash I will defriend you

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dotiscute has been working on costumes for next con season AND LOOK WHAT'S FOR ME



LOOK AT IT USING YOUR EYES ARE YOU LOOKING

I need to find a lavender cloche how do I do that oh right uo
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ EMSSSSS I L U

people do like me.

#1 reason to move out, driving force:
move out and away from negative parents.
you'll be okay on your own.
you are strong.
you don't need a boyfriend.
you dont need a roomate.

Do not try to become anything.
Do not make yourself into anything.
Do not be a meditator.
Do not become enlightened.
When you sit, let it be.
What you walk, let it be.
Grasp at nothing.
Resist nothing.

“To deny the reality of things is to miss their reality; to assert the emptiness of things is to miss their reality. The more you talk and think about it, the further astray you wander from the truth. Stop talking and thinking and there is nothing you will not be able to know.”
— Hsin Hsin Ming

We can spend our lives letting the world tell us who we are. Sane or insane. Saints or sex addicts. Heros or victims. Letting history tell us how good or bad we are. Letting our past decide our future. Or we can decide for ourselves. And maybe it’s our job to invent something better.

It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

history repeats itself.
warning signs.
make new friends.
enjoyed company.
not love.

one in a million.
paranoid about your looks.

going brunette.

i really am like every other gay boy.
denial.

★ Thank you Katie for your gift! I was so surprised! I will put to to good use uuuuu
You guys spacetart is the nicest person

★ Jen Wang is selling original watercolors again! Look at this painting and this one!!
I want to do the guy in the dance lesson piece

★ Last call for holiday mail greetings!

Going to attend dotiscute's graduation from fashion school today! My parents are stuck in Africa for an extra week this year, so I am house-sitting for them to Malibu. I am woken up by big white shaggy dogs to make coffee and eat Bosch pears and dry my hair in the sun whilst mentally writing the next epic section of my Kavalier & Clay fan fiction.

Also catiechu is coming up here on Friday so I won't have to be as lonely;;;;;;

1) I am seeing Ben Whishaw LIVE IN LIKE FOUR WEEKS. I CANNOT FUCKING TAKE THE EXCITEMENT. AKDGJDBNGJSLGJF. IF I DON'T GET A PICTURE WITH HIM/AT LEAST MEET HIM i WILL BE GUTTED.

2) Tomorrow's my sister's 27th birthday. Whoa.

3) I'm becoming just a tad obsessed (though I like to call it "fask-i-nated") by musical theater. I just discovered the book to this show called Runaways from the 70s. There's this song in it called "Song of a Child Prostitute." The lyrics kill me:

( Just pretend you feel good.  )

If you skip to 6:40 you can hear a 13 year old Diane Lane singing it. CHILLS.


4) I've made a personal Tumblr here and I'm gonna start posting on it more often. Add me if you've got one!

5) I went to the library! I took out an audiobook of Little Bee on the suggestion of handwrite , as well as The Idiot, Fargo, The Complete Short Stories of Truman Capote, and a book about Old Hollywood ~scandals~. Plus I've got Generation Kill, Bleak House and Little Doritt from Dickens, and I plan to reread Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell, as well (haha I'm a loser). And this is ~just tha beginning~~.


6) My camera is in the shop! FINALLY! I Fuck's sake.

7) The other day some girls at the bus stop at school were laughing at me/making fun of my hair/clothes. Lol. I don't even. I was prepared to rant about this because it was kind of a big thing but I don't even have the energy anymore. I'm fairly insecure but there are just some things that I really couldn't give a fuck about,.

8) My bank account is waaaay in the negative and since I have no job I sold some of my text books at the school store on Monday. I got back $50, surprisingly...but I don't want to deposit it. I really don't want to. What a waste. I haven't had money for weeks and once I finally get it (and need it) I have to pay some bullshit because my mother took money from my account and didn't tell me and blah blah...Sigh. I cannot wait to start working.


9) Also, jumping on le bandwagon

http://www.formspring.me/zeba

Ask me any question anonymously! Or boost my fragile ego tell me how awesome I am and how I'm fiercer than Naomi Campbell, I dunno.

A post of things pretty good for gifts!

But first, thanks solipsized for a new rec-post! YOU GUYS SHE POSTS THE BEST MUSIC. HANDS DOWN. This Pony Pony Run Run track. I like "Mondegreen" a lot too! Still pretty hot on Yeasayer's single by the way:

YEASAYER - AMBLING ALP
YEASAYER - AMBLING ALP (MEMORY TAPES REMIX)

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Followers of my blog will know that I'm trying to drop International Studies. I just found out that I won't know if I've successfully dropped International Studies until Tuesday 19 January, 2010 (source: Communication Student Centre guy & here).

Student Centre guy also told me that I should enrol for my current 2010 subjects to avoid the fine for late enrolments. So here I am, signing up for German 3 & 4, even though I'm hoping (not that I don't love German!) I won't be doing it anymore.

*headdesk*,
Nicole

So right now I'm watching "The Stolen Earth" on BBC America right now (they're doing a Doctor Who marathon), and everyone has just discovered that the Daleks are back. And Jack is hugging Ianto and Gwen and telling them, "I'm sorry, but we're dead," and Sarah Jane is hugging her son and saying, "Oh, but you're so young!" And I'm just staring blankly at the screen because BITCHES YOU KNOW THE DALEKS AREN'T GOING TO DO SHIT BECAUSE THEY FAIL AND WHO GIVES A SHIT THEY SHOW UP EVERY FUCKING YEAR AND DON'T DO SHIT SO CALM THE FUCK DOWN.

And here comes Rose Tyler Defender of the Earth with her Big Gun and her Ugly Purple Jacket and I just want to smack the shit out her. Fuck's sake.

Yeah, I'm pissed. I am so over this bullshit can he just DIE? Seriously, JUST. FUCKING. DIE. The only thing making this watchable is Donna, but just BARELY. I'm gonng switch this shit off in about five minutes because I don't think I can even stand The Doctor and Rose ~uniting~ and then Rose getting her ~very own~ Doctor oh give me a fucking BREAK.GIVE. ME. A. FUCKING. BREAK. I told myself that as much as I'm hating on 10 and RTD I'll probably cry during EoT but I'm getting to the point where I HIGHLY. FUCKING. DOUBT. THAT. I'M GOING TO BE CLAPPING MY HANDS AND SHOUTING WITH GLEE WHEN THAT MOFO REGENERATES. YEAH, I SAID IT. BAM. I'M SORRY I NEED TO LET THIS SHIT OUT.

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I spent the better part of the day assembling, sealing, and mailing out packages! 5cmprince your oversize Petit Prince pop up book -- which delights me as it would a bougy 8 year old whose mom shops at Anthro -- is on its way towards you as I type!



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I just want to use this emoticon forever
like, I AM FESTIVELY SHOOTING LOUD STARS AT YOU

Today I also bought a pair of Kelsi Dagger boots on Overstock! I shop for clothes semi annually, for tank tops and such in spring and for boots in the fall. The Tahari riding boots I bought last Thanksgiving have gotten pretty ratty, which makes me sad because they barely lasted a year!! The zipper on the left boot somehow forgot how to zip while I was uh walking across Paris, so I had to safety pin it back together and hobble like a thousand blocks to the international dorms and now I have to figure out how zippers get cut out of / sewn into things?

You may think you know how, but the concept is more advanced than it seems.

I like how the zippers on these face outward, so they don't snag your tights.

Sorry for being absent or silent for the past couple of months. I'm writing this entry to let you know that I'm still alive. 2009 passed by so fast, too many things happened and I don't even know how to start writing about it here. However, I have a new blog up and running - http://khairilosman.com/blog/

And if you'd like to subscribe to my feeds - http://khairilosman.com/blog/?feed=rss2
Leave comments there, whenever you like! (Or you could indicate which livejournal user you were because I remember all of you)

I'll be updating very often there. Albeit, I really do miss this place. I may come back here, but I don't know yet. I do visit this place from time to time to catch up with other people's entries. I'm not going to delete this livejournal account I've had for 5 years (coming to 6 as of today). It feels like I grew up with it, so many memories here, so many souls reading this journal, so many ... everything. If livejournal won't end up deleting this account, I'll probably look back at it when I'm 10 years older. Somehow it's nice to have a part of your 'childhood' stored on the internet. Going through the old posts and comments made me feel alive once again.

Love,
Khairil Osman

Sorry it has been a while.

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ask me some questions I am an honest type


no that's not true

Making this post because idk how many fans of the New Pornographers are aware of Newman's solo work. I sure wasn't until someone literally put The Slow Wonder, his first LP effort, into my hot little hands! Since Newman writes most of the music and lyrics for the New Pornographers, his releases are like Great Lost Pornos Records. Same sound, same virtuosity with time signatures and layered melodies, but now a little more minimal. The Slow Wonder tracks that stayed with me the longest have been the quietest; not in this new Challengers-type chamber-y manner to which the Pornos have grown particular, but rather coming off charged with the fickering energy of spaces between sounds, interspersed with big climactic crashes.

It might take a few listens to get into these songs, strong as their hooks may be, since Get Guilty is Newman's weaker record -- and a decidedly more grown-up one. He's lived a lot since the summer of 2004. Then again, "The Collected Works" is basically his take on "Fat Bottomed Girls", so draw your own conclusions. The lyrics, too, are spare but eminently shoutable. I FOUGHT MY WAY THROUGH TO THE WEST SIDE FOR YOU!! etc. ♔

01. There Are Maybe Ten or Twelve
02. The Heartbreak Rides
03. Like a Hitman, Like a Dancer
04. Prophets
05. Submarines of Stockholm
06. Thunderbolts
07. The Palace at 4 a.m.
08. The Changeling (Get Guilty)
09. Elemental
10. Young Atlantis
11. The Collected Works
12. All of My Days and All of My Days Off
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Alberto Giacometti, The Palace at 4 a.m.
Wood, Glass, Wire, & String
1932



"...a period of six months passed in the presence of a woman who, concentrating all life in herself, transported my every moment into a state of enchantment. We constructed a fantastical palace in the night—a very fragile palace of matches. At the least false movement a whole section would collapse. We always began it again."

Thank you guys for the lj gifts! Those snowflakes inspired me to make tiny sandwich cookies out of felt and cotton! If you want some, you can leave your name and address below! I will even throw in a card with maybe a picture of Lenin on it

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I mentioned in my previous blog that I'm currently reading Daughters of Shame by Jasvinder Sanghera. I picked it up because of the following keywords in the blurb: honour-based violence, forced marriage, stories of young women (and also, from what I've read so far, there's a story of a man who was forced to marry), to marry a man she had never met, abusive marriage.

Wow Nicole, you've picked up a cheerful sounding book. For awhile now I've had an interest of how something like arranged marriages still exist. Values from a world far from the western one I (and most of you who are reading my blog) live in.

I can marry for love. I can choose who I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with. I can choose how to live my life.

It's so hard to understand, because I find myself asking Why? Why can't they just break away from it all? As Sanghera's book shows, it's not that easy.

My understanding of the importance of family honour and the consequences of being disowned compared to the characters of Sanghera's book is only a smidgeon. For example, if I get pregnant, I'll get disowned - kicked out of home, to fend for myself and my unborn child (dramatic, no?).

Sanghera's book isn't the only one I've read. I've read Monica Ali's Brick Lane (I still need to find this movie), and Jean Sasson's Daughters of Arabia.

Maybe the majority of us don't really care. We're too busy enjoying the western way of living, and it is indeed, a great life, haha.

I'm not saying the eastern nor western way of living is the "right" way of living. Obviously my book selection is biased, and I'm only reading about the terrors of arranged marriages. When it comes to both worlds, east or west, it all comes down to morals and being humane. Because even the western world has its issues.

Nicole

My journal username is bonkahs, depriving from bonkers. Just this morning I came across a cat on YouTube named Bonks! He's absolutely adorable and since we have similar names we MUST BE related. ...I should really get ready for work.



Christmas present post up next.
Currently reading Daughters of Shame by Jasvinder Sanghera,
Nicole

I am so very tired but I can't go to sleep, it's like I am afraid to sleep or something. Oh, sigh. Thank you helpme__rhonda and christianeee for the virtual gifts, so sweet <3.

"'Can a magician kill a man by magic?' Lord Wellington asked Strange. Strange frowned. He seemed to dislike the question. 'I suppose a magician might,' he admitted, 'but a gentleman never could.'"



Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell


And please share, too! Recommend me some good books to read over my winter break. All I do is read books for school these days. Any classics you think are must-reads (for a Lit major I'm really bad when it comes to having read most canon novels)? Any new authors you think are awesome? What's the last great book you read? Etc, etc. Yay literature.

Almost stream of consciousness post. Lots of parenthesis. My grammar is stupid most of the time. I've killed my LJ long ago, I never get to write this long anymore. I cannot stop myself. :))

( Long post on art, work, etc. which was supposed to be on my dA but it grew exponentially so I had to place it here instead. )

Dad and I headed to Eveleigh yesterday (right next to Redfern) to the Finders Keepers markets! It was an awesome get together of indie art and design. While I intentionally planned to blow $80, I only bought a pair of Pigeon Hole earrings for $25. Check out Pigeon Hole! They have great stuff and had people constantly crowded around their stall.

The fashion was amazing too. It was mostly $100+, but hey, if you want an original piece. A hair piece from one of the stores was $190! (Similar to the one I saw, here's a photo. It's the red, green, yellow, black hair piece in the top right. Photo taken by LittleBlackBook.TypePad.Com). No wonder the lady didn't seem interested in talking to me. But it was an amazing piece which she said took a very long time to make.

I also saw Victoria Mason there. *sighs at her jewellery*

Afterwards, on a contradictory move, I bought a $10 plastic pearl necklace from Equip. Haha.





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As well as jewellery and clothing, there was homeware, postcards, illustration prints, trinkets and toys. Nina bought some badges (above). Also, here's another blog entry about Finders Keepers for those who are interested.

Will I go next year? I would, just to see the new range of items and designers.

Have a great Sunday!
Dinner with William and Kylie tonight <3
Nicole

Last night i dreamt of walking in mud and it getting all over me. Then a snake that was hiding in the mud bit me and i could feel it's poision going all over my body. It was really really realistic. :( Looked up these this morning and this is what i found:

Mud
Dreaming about walking in mud represents a feeling of being weighed down by a situation or problem. If you dream that mud has gotten on you, it means you feel that your reputation is being attacked by others.

Snake
A powerful dream symbol associated with feminine energy, healing and spirituality. Being bitten by a snake in a dream is actually positive, meaning you are accepting all parts of your nature as you grow into a stronger person. If you dream of attacking, wrestling with or trying to kill a snake (or dream that another animal is doing so), you will have to defend your reputation against nasty gossip. If the attempt to kill the snake was successful in your dream, you will succeed against all hostilities.

Pain
To dream that you are in pain suggests you are being too hard on yourself about a situation that was out of your control. It can also be a reflection of real physical pain that carries over from your waking life.

This is scary because it's so true lol D:!